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"Do you feel more sexually attractive or beautiful in mess? I do..."
Love you, too
Well, let me first start off by admitting that yes, I have severe body dysmorphia. Severe. I know you cant tell it in my videos but that is for a reason.
I am medicated for it...I do therapy...I have been doing different things with my body that I am not happy with...but? Its to try to defeat the problem. Find the root cause.
anyhooo-----
When im playing in mess? I dont feel like I need to suck in, I totally forget. I dont feel like I need to sit this way or that way...I dont care...
I honestly feel my most beautiful and sexual in mess. Do you all feel that way?
Now? I love playing the humiliation role as well and getting covered in savory mess too but even that makes me feel like I look better than I did clean.
Is this just me and my dysmorphia? Maybe it is because my body is covered in the mess which means that it is something else blocking the view of just my "naked body" that makes me uneasy on a normal day. Something happens when a camera comes on. Even If i start taking but know mess is coming. When Im starting nude? I feel a little anxiety but? The rush of adrenaline knowing what is coming makes it easy.
Is this just me or do you all too, feel your best, in mess? Or maybe im having a mixture of the two. The dysmorphia AND bc this is my thing....and mess just makes me feel sexier, act sexier, be sexier!
anyway- I was wondering if anyone else felt this way.
thanks for reading and commenting if you do I know it is kinda personal so? dont feel like you have to but i would love to read if people feel like this too....like? my favorite pics are me slathered in mess! haha!
I just feel like I look more beautiful, somehow.
thoughts? stories? what about you?
I am medicated for it...I do therapy...I have been doing different things with my body that I am not happy with...but? Its to try to defeat the problem. Find the root cause.
anyhooo-----
When im playing in mess? I dont feel like I need to suck in, I totally forget. I dont feel like I need to sit this way or that way...I dont care...
I honestly feel my most beautiful and sexual in mess. Do you all feel that way?
Now? I love playing the humiliation role as well and getting covered in savory mess too but even that makes me feel like I look better than I did clean.
Is this just me and my dysmorphia? Maybe it is because my body is covered in the mess which means that it is something else blocking the view of just my "naked body" that makes me uneasy on a normal day. Something happens when a camera comes on. Even If i start taking but know mess is coming. When Im starting nude? I feel a little anxiety but? The rush of adrenaline knowing what is coming makes it easy.
Is this just me or do you all too, feel your best, in mess? Or maybe im having a mixture of the two. The dysmorphia AND bc this is my thing....and mess just makes me feel sexier, act sexier, be sexier!
anyway- I was wondering if anyone else felt this way.
thanks for reading and commenting if you do I know it is kinda personal so? dont feel like you have to but i would love to read if people feel like this too....like? my favorite pics are me slathered in mess! haha! I just feel like I look more beautiful, somehow.
thoughts? stories? what about you?
Get Messy, Get Wet, C'mon Get Happy!
Jayce,
I'd absolutely agree for myself! I LOVE rewatching my scenes
~~Mrs
I'd absolutely agree for myself! I LOVE rewatching my scenes
~~Mrs
Stay messy, friends!
Jayce said: Well, let me first start off by...
A brilliant and frank description of what drives you. I think of the 80's photography book "Veruschka" based on the model by that name. In each photograph she is nude and completely covered in paint - well-hidden in depicted suits, colors, costumes, even rocks -- all paint. She described wanting to be covered, to hide, as it were - to disappear. I think a lot of wammers must feel that way - that vanishing in the stuff is the ultimate freedom.
The other thing is the modeling. It's about control. Naked, yes, but totally in control of the story and the thing to come, as you say. In summary, though, people appreciate what you've done along with unstoppable passion and great moments on camera - beautiful ones.
Let me start by saying that Jayce- your confidence and sexiness with and without the mess has been truly an inspiration through many years. I'm sorry you've dealt with body issues and def know how that goes- I often hate editing my own footage if I'm bent a certain way or lingerie is too tight etc - but I honestly never would have guessed you had an ounce of doubt in yourself or body.
I've always felt very sexy in mess and when I shoot, I often lose myself and forget I'm not supposed to be at a certain angle or that I wanted to keep my bra on this shoot
BUT living with the fetish from a very young age- I had a ton of shame about all this and though I was feeling myself in the bathtub with a bucket of slop- I thought that truly no one ever else would. Opening up to this community and getting positive feedback before I even sold and just sharing w friends here brought me to tears due to the acceptance and validation
So long story short- YES! 100% I feel more attractive and beautiful in the mess
I've always felt very sexy in mess and when I shoot, I often lose myself and forget I'm not supposed to be at a certain angle or that I wanted to keep my bra on this shoot
BUT living with the fetish from a very young age- I had a ton of shame about all this and though I was feeling myself in the bathtub with a bucket of slop- I thought that truly no one ever else would. Opening up to this community and getting positive feedback before I even sold and just sharing w friends here brought me to tears due to the acceptance and validation
So long story short- YES! 100% I feel more attractive and beautiful in the mess
gosh yall....
this makes me feel so much less.....alone!
thank you. I am tearing up just reading this because solely? I dont feel alone!
it is such a strange thing but? luckily I have this place and it makes something strange? something so normal. gosh, i appreciate that so much and why I love the umd so much.
thanks yall. keep on posting how you feel about it! hearing this stuff is truly moving
and thank you all for the lovely, lovely compliments. I wasnt seeking those but they are welcomed and I thank you!
this makes me feel so much less.....alone!
thank you. I am tearing up just reading this because solely? I dont feel alone!
it is such a strange thing but? luckily I have this place and it makes something strange? something so normal. gosh, i appreciate that so much and why I love the umd so much.
thanks yall. keep on posting how you feel about it! hearing this stuff is truly moving
and thank you all for the lovely, lovely compliments. I wasnt seeking those but they are welcomed and I thank you!
Get Messy, Get Wet, C'mon Get Happy!
I've actually thought about this a bit before, I've enjoyed wam scenes with people who weren't my taste after they get covered in mess and then looked forward to scenes with them again, I think wam is great cause it quite literally covers any perceived imperfections of a person like wrinkles or stretch marks(which I enjoy as I have them myself). Also Jayce I'm sad to hear you struggle with body dismorphia, I think most people on here agree that you are a fucking gorgeous woman and love seeing you covered in mess. I personally love your accent, it's the cherry on top of a beautiful woman and really gets me going : 
One aspect of WAM that I have always liked is that a girl who is willing to get messy (especially take a pie in her face or cake batter over her head) shows that she is secure and confident in her sex appeal without the fussy need to be flawless.
So many women seem to think that she must have "every hair in place" and perfect make-up to be beautiful and sexy.
In my experience WAM encourages spontaneity and lack of self consciousness.
That's one reason why it's such an intense and enjoyable experience. it's kind of like a runners high it puts you entirety "in the moment".
So many women seem to think that she must have "every hair in place" and perfect make-up to be beautiful and sexy.
In my experience WAM encourages spontaneity and lack of self consciousness.
That's one reason why it's such an intense and enjoyable experience. it's kind of like a runners high it puts you entirety "in the moment".
No. Dressing in female clothes is what makes me feel sexually attractive and beautiful. Is interesting to read your POV Jayce.
Getting messy is like the ultimate personification of chaos. Can only enjoy it for so long before the good old OCD kicks in and I clean.
Getting messy is like the ultimate personification of chaos. Can only enjoy it for so long before the good old OCD kicks in and I clean.
I had to think about this for a while because initially my answer was no. I feel ridiculous, embarrassed and totally turned on. Then after some reflection I realized when messy the reaction I get from other wammers has been positive and makes me want to do/show more. So I suppose my answer would be yes.
There are definitely times while getting messy where I relax and hate the way I look. Be it hunched over covered in slime taking care of myself, being covered in pie and just feeling shy, or just feeling fat and bloated. I often actually think of what I am going to eat the day before and day of getting messy just so I don't feel puffy. Yes guys have body image issues too.
Overall I think the entire situation just leaves me genuinely overwhelmed in a good way. I feel a flood of different emotions every time always ending in an explosive finish
I would say I definitely feel more shy and embarrassed than sexy overall but those feelings are part of my fetish and probably aren't going away.
There are definitely times while getting messy where I relax and hate the way I look. Be it hunched over covered in slime taking care of myself, being covered in pie and just feeling shy, or just feeling fat and bloated. I often actually think of what I am going to eat the day before and day of getting messy just so I don't feel puffy. Yes guys have body image issues too.
Overall I think the entire situation just leaves me genuinely overwhelmed in a good way. I feel a flood of different emotions every time always ending in an explosive finish
I would say I definitely feel more shy and embarrassed than sexy overall but those feelings are part of my fetish and probably aren't going away.
Not really more attractive, I never really feel that, but I do feel like my complete self when I'm all covered in mess and trashing my clothes. I feel whole. It is fleeting, but I feel it. And then comes what the BDSM community would refer to as "sub drop" after it's all cleaned up and I'm back in clean clothes again.
Yes, I do.
I like to make videos of myself getting messy. Watching them turns me on, probably even more than making the video in the first place. I never like the bit when I take my clothes off and you can see I'm ever so slightly over weight, or when you see my ass and it's a bit "droopy", but as soon as the mess goes on, I'm hotter than hell.
The funny thing is, just a few years ago I thought I only liked to get others messy, and not be messy myself.
I like to make videos of myself getting messy. Watching them turns me on, probably even more than making the video in the first place. I never like the bit when I take my clothes off and you can see I'm ever so slightly over weight, or when you see my ass and it's a bit "droopy", but as soon as the mess goes on, I'm hotter than hell.
The funny thing is, just a few years ago I thought I only liked to get others messy, and not be messy myself.
There are very good comments throughout this thread. Let me say first, Jayce, that you are equally beautiful clothed, unclothed, messy, non-messy. As for insecurity about our looks, most people have it. You just have it to a high degree apparently. But if you've ever read confessions by supermodels there's a widespread theme that they have serious body issues. As for me, a male, I have a ton of issues though overall I know I'm okay on the rating scale. As I get older I find that I'm more relaxed about it. Maybe that will happen to you.
Do I feel better looking when messy? I'm really not thinking about it. Usually I'm thinking that this is cool, this is wild, it feels good, and I'm with a woman (my wife) who engages in it too. I led her into this fetish and I think she was surprised at how good she looked. I like looking at a full length mirror when covered in mess. So now I'm thinking I do look better messy. But during the act it's more about the tactile sensations and the reality that here's a partner who is also excited about it.
Thank you for being so emotionally open on these pages. It helps us all.
Do I feel better looking when messy? I'm really not thinking about it. Usually I'm thinking that this is cool, this is wild, it feels good, and I'm with a woman (my wife) who engages in it too. I led her into this fetish and I think she was surprised at how good she looked. I like looking at a full length mirror when covered in mess. So now I'm thinking I do look better messy. But during the act it's more about the tactile sensations and the reality that here's a partner who is also excited about it.
Thank you for being so emotionally open on these pages. It helps us all.
Andorian said: One aspect of WAM that I have always liked is that a girl who is willing to get messy (especially take a pie in her face or cake batter over her head) shows that she is secure and confident in her sex appeal without the fussy need to be flawless.
So many women seem to think that she must have "every hair in place" and perfect make-up to be beautiful and sexy.
In my experience WAM encourages spontaneity and lack of self consciousness.
That's one reason why it's such an intense and enjoyable experience. it's kind of like a runners high it puts you entirety "in the moment".
So many women seem to think that she must have "every hair in place" and perfect make-up to be beautiful and sexy.
In my experience WAM encourages spontaneity and lack of self consciousness.
That's one reason why it's such an intense and enjoyable experience. it's kind of like a runners high it puts you entirety "in the moment".
I agree with your statement. One thing I like, though, is a "every hair in place" woman who loves getting messy. That's a specific turn on I have. Or when a conservative looking woman puts on sexy clothes.
From a psychological viewpoint I think the mess is kinda like cosplay (which you're familiar with). It lets you be someone or something else for a little while and escape your own brain. The mess hides what your inner voice says is wrong so you don't see it and don't think about it. It literally stops bothering you during those moments. There isn't anything wrong with your body btw. You're right when you say it's in your head. Many of us struggle with perceived imperfections that make us insecure but other people don't even notice them. 
Or just marry a baker and live your life as a giant cream woman. In fact, I'll invest in a bakery if you're game???
Or just marry a baker and live your life as a giant cream woman. In fact, I'll invest in a bakery if you're game???
I collect toys (action figures, etc.)! PM me! :)
My wife has body image issues too n doesn't love wam n claims she ONLY does for me (she does have some fun) but she looks pretty defeated when super sloppy gunge is constantly poured on her hair. And looks way sadder when I gather all the left overs from tub n mix and pour over her. But after she is super wet. I assumed it was just cause she knows I'm leaking fluids like it's cool at that point, but maybe your thoughts could be cause her body at that point is just caked w batter pie crusts oat meal n all the other stuff?
I can't say I feel more attractive when I'm messy (if anything I'd be even more embarrassed if I was caught covered in shaving foam or cake batter than with my pants down), but I do understand the feeling of not always being happy with my own physique. I've been trying to take small steps to improve my self image a bit more, but I often feel extraordinarily unremarkable in how I look. So I can empathize with that to an extent.
What I will say tho is that being messy does make me feel more physically aware and in tune with my own body. To better explain: being covered in something head-to-toe stimulates the senses everywhere at once, and gives me more of a conscious feeling of awareness of every part of my body at one time, which I think can have a very strong correlation to sexual excitement.
Trying to think to the last time I went sinking in deep mud/quicksand at this quarry I found: it felt like every part of my body below my chest (which is sadly as far as I could sink, it was so dense) was being held in a damp, mushy body-stocking, and every part of me that was submerged was being stimulated at once. It made me feel more in tune with my entire body while also providing a sense of comfort: like I was being given a full-body hug. I think that's one of the best ways I can explain how even if I don't feel more attractive in mess, I defiantly feel more sexually in tune with my own body.
P.S. I'm sorry to hear you keep dealing with body dysphoria. I hope you know so many of us find you incredibly attractive clean or messy, nude or clothed. You've made some of my favorite videos I've ever purchased form this site, and I still go back to them not just for the messes but because it's plain to see you're having so much fun/pleasure making them, and to me there's nothing hotter than that!
What I will say tho is that being messy does make me feel more physically aware and in tune with my own body. To better explain: being covered in something head-to-toe stimulates the senses everywhere at once, and gives me more of a conscious feeling of awareness of every part of my body at one time, which I think can have a very strong correlation to sexual excitement.
Trying to think to the last time I went sinking in deep mud/quicksand at this quarry I found: it felt like every part of my body below my chest (which is sadly as far as I could sink, it was so dense) was being held in a damp, mushy body-stocking, and every part of me that was submerged was being stimulated at once. It made me feel more in tune with my entire body while also providing a sense of comfort: like I was being given a full-body hug. I think that's one of the best ways I can explain how even if I don't feel more attractive in mess, I defiantly feel more sexually in tune with my own body.
P.S. I'm sorry to hear you keep dealing with body dysphoria. I hope you know so many of us find you incredibly attractive clean or messy, nude or clothed. You've made some of my favorite videos I've ever purchased form this site, and I still go back to them not just for the messes but because it's plain to see you're having so much fun/pleasure making them, and to me there's nothing hotter than that!
Come to the castle! I've baked a cake for you!
This is fascinating! And I think this reveals a huge part of the appeal of WAM to me. I'm more of a visual/vicarious wammer than someone who actually gets messy, and one of the appeals to me in watching content is how the people in the mess seem to "transform" (not just phsyically, but like, being covered in mess just seems to bring out another side of people who enjoy it). I've definitely seen that with Jayce, Mrs, and Chloe G's work. Many many others as well, like RubberCartoon, Violet Vixen, CreamMeAgain or Brattyshortcakes. It just seems to awake some kind of powerful confidence while also heightening arousal, and that makes these scenes so exciting to me. It's sexy and vicariously empowering seeing that. And even though I'm not attracted to men and heavily favor female WAM, I think this is why I can sometimes enjoy male WAM that features heavy coverage (like mud), because of the texture of the mud and the physical/mental transformation that takes place.
Back when I was ashamed of this kink, I used to view it as something of a curse. But now I feel very fortunate in getting to see this side of others who share the kink and who enjoy sharing it with us. There's something very liberating about knowing other people are into this who otherwise go about normal, everyday lives. And most people will be none the wiser about it.
Back when I was ashamed of this kink, I used to view it as something of a curse. But now I feel very fortunate in getting to see this side of others who share the kink and who enjoy sharing it with us. There's something very liberating about knowing other people are into this who otherwise go about normal, everyday lives. And most people will be none the wiser about it.
MarioFan64 said: I can't say I feel more attractive when I'm messy (if anything I'd be even more embarrassed if I was caught covered in shaving foam or cake batter than with my pants down), but I do understand the feeling of not always being happy with my own physique. I've been trying to take small steps to improve my self image a bit more, but I often feel extraordinarily unremarkable in how I look. So I can empathize with that to an extent.
What I will say tho is that being messy does make me feel more physically aware and in tune with my own body. To better explain: being covered in something head-to-toe stimulates the senses everywhere at once, and gives me more of a conscious feeling of awareness of every part of my body at one time, which I think can have a very strong correlation to sexual excitement.
Trying to think to the last time I went sinking in deep mud/quicksand at this quarry I found: it felt like every part of my body below my chest (which is sadly as far as I could sink, it was so dense) was being held in a damp, mushy body-stocking, and every part of me that was submerged was being stimulated at once. It made me feel more in tune with my entire body while also providing a sense of comfort: like I was being given a full-body hug. I think that's one of the best ways I can explain how even if I don't feel more attractive in mess, I defiantly feel more sexually in tune with my own body.
P.S. I'm sorry to hear you keep dealing with body dysphoria. I hope you know so many of us find you incredibly attractive clean or messy, nude or clothed. You've made some of my favorite videos I've ever purchased form this site, and I still go back to them not just for the messes but because it's plain to see you're having so much fun/pleasure making them, and to me there's nothing hotter than that!
What I will say tho is that being messy does make me feel more physically aware and in tune with my own body. To better explain: being covered in something head-to-toe stimulates the senses everywhere at once, and gives me more of a conscious feeling of awareness of every part of my body at one time, which I think can have a very strong correlation to sexual excitement.
Trying to think to the last time I went sinking in deep mud/quicksand at this quarry I found: it felt like every part of my body below my chest (which is sadly as far as I could sink, it was so dense) was being held in a damp, mushy body-stocking, and every part of me that was submerged was being stimulated at once. It made me feel more in tune with my entire body while also providing a sense of comfort: like I was being given a full-body hug. I think that's one of the best ways I can explain how even if I don't feel more attractive in mess, I defiantly feel more sexually in tune with my own body.
P.S. I'm sorry to hear you keep dealing with body dysphoria. I hope you know so many of us find you incredibly attractive clean or messy, nude or clothed. You've made some of my favorite videos I've ever purchased form this site, and I still go back to them not just for the messes but because it's plain to see you're having so much fun/pleasure making them, and to me there's nothing hotter than that!
thank you! soo soo much! and to everyone who is sharing! I love reading this stuff....see how the mind works differently for us all.
now that you mention that? sensory awareness? I love that and sensory depravation...being just totally in the moment and under a giant mass of mess...its like? a meditation almost. not being scared. not worrying about anything...just encased in the mess and laid back and enjoying it. i too, feel that feeling of a big hug when I sink down into the mud. It is an amazing feeling. hence? why if I find mud I can sink or dive into? I love it. its like sensory overload but also? You go under and its quiet except your own breath...
i see what you are saying about being aware of your body. I dig that.
thank you for commenting and everyone else for commenting! I love reading this! Keep them coming! This is something near and dear to me so? Hearing you all and your feelings, good or bad, helps me feel understood.
Also? Im sure if i saw you all covered in mess? I would not look at you as humiliated. I would be like "hell yes! that looks amazing!" so? just know that.
im an equal opportunity wammer and I love any and everything messy. dirty. filthy. you would be surprised at the stuff I do sometimes outside of the umd!
Things I have tried and whatnot.
"its still rock and roll to me"
Get Messy, Get Wet, C'mon Get Happy!
I actually do, to be honest, i even get so aroused and horny whenever i come out covered head to toe in mud, clay, paint, or even latex/rubber, it makes me feel so sexy, i lose myself in a world of arousal i never felt before. That i just dont even mind at all what's going on around me....and i LOVE IT.
I also find myself more attractive covered in mess and I find watching my own videos really hot!
As said by others above somehow mess can appear to emphasize the good aspects of your body shape, I don't understand how this works but I agree that mess does this illusion!
For me the sensations of getting messy are mind blowing. Feeling gooey substances covering all your skin and applying sensations to intimate areas is a sensual heaven. There are so many variables to play with like consistencies, temperatures and different clothing items or clothing materials that feel different when messy.
As said by others above somehow mess can appear to emphasize the good aspects of your body shape, I don't understand how this works but I agree that mess does this illusion!
For me the sensations of getting messy are mind blowing. Feeling gooey substances covering all your skin and applying sensations to intimate areas is a sensual heaven. There are so many variables to play with like consistencies, temperatures and different clothing items or clothing materials that feel different when messy.
I can't speak from a WAM perspective having never been messy. However, I can relate and describe from a general and a kinky perspective. I reckon being able to approach this and various context depends on the ability of finding and expressing one concept: the why. The personal why and someone else's why.
From a general perspective, I don't have body dysmorphia. However, it will give me pause thinking or if I am to end up naked in front of someone. Why? Maybe anxiety wouldn't put past. It hasn't happened in years and I'm not used to good treatment. So I have a hard time believing someone is genuine in wanting to see me in such a vulnerable state.
From a kinky perspective, I reckon when you're kink oriented and you know what you're into, it's like a switch in the brain and all that energy that would perhaps go towards negative feelings channels towards kinky activities. Since WAM has so much variety of appeal, someone can find someway to enjoy some sort of pleasure from it and be turned on one way or another. What can help immensely is not only finding your whys and being able to express them, it's someone that is able to understand it all where you're coming from, the whys, the context, any backstory. Better yet, they're a kinky bugger and they're into similar things or are open to it.
From a general perspective, I don't have body dysmorphia. However, it will give me pause thinking or if I am to end up naked in front of someone. Why? Maybe anxiety wouldn't put past. It hasn't happened in years and I'm not used to good treatment. So I have a hard time believing someone is genuine in wanting to see me in such a vulnerable state.
From a kinky perspective, I reckon when you're kink oriented and you know what you're into, it's like a switch in the brain and all that energy that would perhaps go towards negative feelings channels towards kinky activities. Since WAM has so much variety of appeal, someone can find someway to enjoy some sort of pleasure from it and be turned on one way or another. What can help immensely is not only finding your whys and being able to express them, it's someone that is able to understand it all where you're coming from, the whys, the context, any backstory. Better yet, they're a kinky bugger and they're into similar things or are open to it.
Also? Im sure if i saw you all covered in mess? I would not look at you as humiliated. I would be like "hell yes! that looks amazing!" so? just know that.
im an equal opportunity wammer and I love any and everything messy. dirty. filthy.
Why thank you Jayce!
I guess I'd just feel embarrassed to be caught by most people, but if you specifically caught me, I think I'd be like "Oh, she's an expert on this shit already, so I'm in good company." lol
The only other thing I can think of is that a few years back I decided to dress up for the first time getting messy solo and wanted to wear a cute maid outfit and wig - my first foray into crossdressing WAM. And I took video of my experience, but I was self conscious about seeing my clean face with a wig on and a purple maid dress. I felt like I would cringe at myself. So I wore a face mask (it was peak COVID so I had plenty lying around) while I was still clean and hid my face behind the pie I was holding while I took it off before smashing it in my face.
Ironically, after my face was already covered I felt less self conscious about what I looked like in a wig and dress and just kept piling it on, and was pretty happy with the way it looked later on when I was done. I guess that's similar to what you're talking about. It felt like I was transforming into another person on camera once my face was obstructed by shaving cream and pie crust, and once I got past that initially conscious nervousness and anticipation and just lost myself in enjoyment, I found I was happier with my messy self on camera.
Come to the castle! I've baked a cake for you!
Jayce said: Well, let me first start off by admitting that yes, I have severe body dysmorphia. Severe. I know you cant tell it in my videos but that is for a reason.
I am medicated for it...I do therapy...I have been doing different things with my body that I am not happy with...but? Its to try to defeat the problem. Find the root cause.
anyhooo-----
When im playing in mess? I dont feel like I need to suck in, I totally forget. I dont feel like I need to sit this way or that way...I dont care...
I honestly feel my most beautiful and sexual in mess. Do you all feel that way?
Now? I love playing the humiliation role as well and getting covered in savory mess too but even that makes me feel like I look better than I did clean.
Is this just me and my dysmorphia? Maybe it is because my body is covered in the mess which means that it is something else blocking the view of just my "naked body" that makes me uneasy on a normal day. Something happens when a camera comes on. Even If i start taking but know mess is coming. When Im starting nude? I feel a little anxiety but? The rush of adrenaline knowing what is coming makes it easy.
Is this just me or do you all too, feel your best, in mess? Or maybe im having a mixture of the two. The dysmorphia AND bc this is my thing....and mess just makes me feel sexier, act sexier, be sexier!
anyway- I was wondering if anyone else felt this way. thanks for reading and commenting if you do I know it is kinda personal so? dont feel like you have to but i would love to read if people feel like this too....like? my favorite pics are me slathered in mess! haha!
I just feel like I look more beautiful, somehow.
thoughts? stories? what about you?
I am medicated for it...I do therapy...I have been doing different things with my body that I am not happy with...but? Its to try to defeat the problem. Find the root cause.
anyhooo-----
When im playing in mess? I dont feel like I need to suck in, I totally forget. I dont feel like I need to sit this way or that way...I dont care...
I honestly feel my most beautiful and sexual in mess. Do you all feel that way?
Now? I love playing the humiliation role as well and getting covered in savory mess too but even that makes me feel like I look better than I did clean.
Is this just me and my dysmorphia? Maybe it is because my body is covered in the mess which means that it is something else blocking the view of just my "naked body" that makes me uneasy on a normal day. Something happens when a camera comes on. Even If i start taking but know mess is coming. When Im starting nude? I feel a little anxiety but? The rush of adrenaline knowing what is coming makes it easy.
Is this just me or do you all too, feel your best, in mess? Or maybe im having a mixture of the two. The dysmorphia AND bc this is my thing....and mess just makes me feel sexier, act sexier, be sexier!
anyway- I was wondering if anyone else felt this way.
thanks for reading and commenting if you do I know it is kinda personal so? dont feel like you have to but i would love to read if people feel like this too....like? my favorite pics are me slathered in mess! haha! I just feel like I look more beautiful, somehow.
thoughts? stories? what about you?
I know that's something you've been dealing with for a long time. I know there's nothing no one can say or do that will just make that go away. But I'm hoping the love and support here goes a way in to at least helping you combat it.
You are gorgeous, inside and out.
I don't feel...sexier or anything per se (I haven't felt sexy to anyone in a very long time), but I do get that "release" and not giving a fuck feeling. It's liberating, and kinda almost relaxing.
Damn fool of a tuber
Yea. I definitely think I'm an ugly Chud, but having long hair and dying it makes me feel a little sexier, and I constantly get compliments on it when I go out...when I'm messy, it's definitely an improvement. I generally set up a mirror to watch myself because I love how I look with messy hair, but it usually gets to a point where my glasses get covered and I can't see anymore, so it helps to be filming. As others have stated, I love watching my own videos, there are moments in them all where I'm just like "Daaaamn that's hot!"
#DontLookUp
I think there are times in life where I do feel sexy, but there's also a devil on my shoulder trying to put me down at every turn - and so any feelings of sexiness are very fleeting.
Being messy doesn't make me feel sexy per-se, but it also quietens the mind and allows me to just enjoy the moment, which is definitely a big part of the appeal.
Being messy doesn't make me feel sexy per-se, but it also quietens the mind and allows me to just enjoy the moment, which is definitely a big part of the appeal.
